Tag: mental-health

  • The Demise of Quiet Competence

    Somewhere along the way, we stopped valuing systems and started worshipping visibility.

    Many Indian parents spent decades wanting their children to become “successful” — not necessarily useful, ethical, dependable, or collaborative — but visibly successful. The doctor title. The foreign degree. The cabin. The luxury car. The designation. The image of having “made it.”

    And children raised in that environment naturally grew up seeking validation through visibility. Through being seen as important. Through standing out individually rather than functioning collectively.

    The problem is that healthcare cannot survive on individual glory.

    A hospital is not built by stars. It is built by systems. It depends on invisible competence: the nurse who notices subtle deterioration, the attender who keeps a patient dignified, the junior doctor who follows up labs properly, the technician who does not cut corners, the housekeeping staff preventing infection, the duty doctor who documents honestly, the pharmacist who catches an error, the ward clerk who coordinates chaos silently.

    None of these roles are glamorous. None of them are socially celebrated. Parents do not boast about their child becoming “an excellent support system.” Society does not reward quiet reliability.

    So naturally, fewer people aspire to become the invisible backbone of a functioning institution. Everyone wants authority. Everyone wants recognition. Everyone wants rapid upward mobility. Everyone wants to be seen. And slowly, systems hollow out from the inside.

    In corporate hospitals especially, this becomes dangerous. Because once visibility becomes the currency, medicine starts shifting from care to performance. Doctors are pressured to produce numbers. Departments compete instead of collaborate. Optics become more important than continuity. Administrative language replaces human language. Ethics start becoming financially inconvenient.

    And the invisible labour that actually sustains ethical healthcare — time, patience, teamwork, honesty, restraint, accountability — begins disappearing because none of it is immediately visible or rewarded.

    The tragedy is that healthcare is one of the few professions where human beings literally entrust us with their bodies, fears, pain, and survival. Yet the ecosystem around medicine increasingly rewards self-promotion over stewardship.

    We are now producing highly qualified individuals inside poorly functioning systems. And eventually, even the most highly skilled surgeon will fail if she is not backed by a competent system. A surgeon can perform a technically perfect operation and still watch the outcome deteriorate because post-operative monitoring was careless, medication timing was delayed, escalation signs were missed, documentation was incomplete, or basic protocols were not followed consistently.

    People often imagine medicine as a single heroic act inside an operation theatre. It is not. Good outcomes are built hour by hour afterward by an entire chain of people doing small things correctly even when nobody is watching.

    But increasingly, many roles inside hospitals are approached with emotional detachment because they are seen merely as stepping stones. Nursing, especially, has become for many not a profession to build within, but a temporary phase to escape from. The larger dream is elsewhere — another country, another currency, another life that can support their families better.

    And I understand why. The economic reality is harsh. People want survival, stability, dignity. But somewhere in that process, the work itself has become transactional.“Do just enough.” “Get through the shift.” “Get the recommendation letter.” “Leave.”

    The problem is that in healthcare, “just enough” can become the difference between recovery and disability. Between reassurance and trauma. Between a patient returning home with dignity or spending months suffering preventable complications. Patients never know where the system failed them. They only know they trusted us.

    At the same time, even non-clinical departments increasingly function through optics rather than substance. Marketing teams obsess over reels, engagement metrics, thumbnails, logos, and taglines. HR departments push doctors toward visibility because visibility attracts business. But very little importance is given to whether the content is actually useful, ethical, nuanced, or medically responsible. Doctors who are uncomfortable in front of cameras or unfamiliar with digital media are often pushed into participating anyway, while the actual informational value gets diluted in favour of controversy, simplification, or emotionally manipulative hooks designed only to capture attention. The goal quietly shifts from: “How do we educate patients better?” to: “How do we increase reach?”

    Even administration, in many places, functions reactively instead of structurally. There is little emphasis on creating streamlined systems, clear escalation pathways, enforceable protocols, accountability chains, or efficient algorithms that reduce human error. Processes are often vague, inconsistent, or dependent on whichever individual happens to be responsible that day. And then the burden of holding the system together silently falls on whoever still cares enough to compensate for the gaps.

    That compensation becomes invisible labour too.You double-check what should already have been checked. You follow up what should already have been followed up. You intervene where protocols should already exist. You absorb inefficiency because the patient should not suffer for it. Over time, this creates exhausted professionals trying to function as entire systems by themselves.

    But no individual, however competent, can indefinitely compensate for institutional incompetence. And that is what frightens me most. Not the lack of talent. India has extraordinary medical talent. What frightens me is the gradual normalization of fragmentation, shortcuts, emotional disengagement, and performative efficiency inside a field where human lives depend on collective integrity.

    A system collapses long before the building does. It collapses when invisible work stops mattering.

  • I Didn’t Want A Seat at the Table. I wanted a Life.

    The world is disappointing.
    Let’s not romanticize it. Let’s not hashtag it into something inspirational. It really isn’t rainbows and roses.

    And in a male-dominated world, it is a lot more harder if you’re a woman—especially if you’re competent, outspoken, and inconveniently uninterested in being grateful for crumbs.

    I’m tired of fighting for a place at the table.

    Not because I can’t hold my own. I can. I’ve done it. Repeatedly. With data, skill, credentials, emotional intelligence, and the kind of resilience people like to applaud after they’ve benefited from it.

    I’m tired because I finally looked closely at the table.

    It’s filthy.

    Sticky with ego.
    Stained with selective meritocracy.
    Held up by unspoken rules that change the minute you start winning.

    Why are we still pretending this is aspirational?

    Somewhere along the way, ambition got hijacked. It stopped being about doing good work and became about tolerating nonsense. Endless negotiations. Being talked over. Being mistaken for support staff. Being “too much” and “not enough” in the same breath. Being asked to prove—again—what was never questioned in the first place when a man walked in.

    And the quiet violence of it all?
    Being dragged into messes you never signed up for.

    Politics you didn’t start.
    Power struggles you didn’t want.
    Egos you didn’t poke—but somehow still offended.

    You show up to do your job. You leave carrying someone else’s insecurity like unpaid baggage.

    I didn’t ask to be part of this narrative.

    I didn’t wake up one day and say, Yes, please—insert me into a system where I have to fight twice as hard to be taken half as seriously. I wanted to live. I wanted to do what I’m good at. I wanted to build something honest and be paid fairly for it. Radical dreams, apparently.

    Somewhere, we were sold the lie that endurance equals success. That if you can just tolerate a little more disrespect, a little more silence, a little more self-betrayal—you’ll earn your spot.

    But what if the real success is walking away?

    What if opting out isn’t weakness but clarity?

    I’m done confusing survival with achievement.
    I’m done mistaking visibility for value.
    I’m done contorting myself to fit systems that thrive on exhaustion and call it “professionalism.”

    Here’s the truth no one markets well:
    You can be exceptional and still choose peace.
    You can be ambitious without being consumed.
    You can be powerful without sitting at a rotten table.

    I don’t want dominance. I want autonomy.
    I don’t want permission. I want space.
    I don’t want to win rigged games. I want a life that feels like mine.

    And maybe that means redefining success entirely. Smaller rooms. Quieter wins. Work that doesn’t require armor. People who don’t need to be managed emotionally for you to exist.

    Maybe it means fewer applause moments and more evenings where your nervous system isn’t on fire.

    I can do so much better.

    Not in the way the world measures “better”—titles, optics, validation from people who never risked anything—but in the way that actually matters: alignment. Sanity. Dignity.

    I don’t want a seat at the table anymore.

    I’m building my own damn kitchen.
    Clean counters. Sharp knives. No noise I didn’t choose.

    And this time, I’m not asking who’s in charge.
    I already know.